New Beginnings

In this blog, I am documenting my life. I have come full circle, from trying to become a child of God to actually becoming one. It took me many years of self-deception and searching for something I could not describe to finally find Christ.

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I write research articles, have done so since 1994.  I married my best friend in 2012, and we are in it for the long haul.  I have four children and five grandchildren.  My expertise is in teaching Sunday School.  I love listening to them memorize verses, and telling them Bible stories.  You can see my current endeavors at, and on Facebook at Yucaipa Writer's Group.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

The cult I came out of into Christ.

My Thoughts on Jehovah’s Witnesses and the People who are successful in leaving them. CLAUDIA BARLOW·FRIDAY, DECEMBER 9, 2016

I have been communicating with people who have been Jehovah’s Witnesses in the past since 2002. I have often wondered why so many of them were so bitter against God, Jesus and the Bible. Some of them have turned to Atheism, Wicca, and other satanic groups, also Mormonism and various other cults. But I have reviewed the changes that Jehovah’s Witnesses have been through since I left, the changes that they went through during the time I was in the cult, and a lot of the books and writings of people, and realized that there is not tha much talk of God.

And then it dawned on me. They have no god. No god, no bible. They have Studies in the Scriptures, which is based on Russell’s ideas of things, and he talks about Scripture in the context of his opinionated thinking and writing.

So we have a messed up writing upon which is based the Magazines that they have been reading since 1874 or whenever they came about, the books that have been printed for people to read and get their so called inspiration from, and then the New World Translation of the Holy Scriptures. It is so mis-translated that it is no longer God’s Word. They have made up laws, that their people have to abide by. They have tactics that break up the strongest social unit, that is the family, thus weakening everybody, making them dependent upon the Governing Body, a body of men that have made themselves objects of worship.

They have no right to call their god Jehovah, because YHWH, the TETRAGRAMMATON, was the name of God in the Old Testament. That became Yah Weh as the need to pronounce it became evident. Jehovah became a derivative of that name. Their god does not deserve that name, for their god is a cruel god who kills and destroys and does horrible things. The God of the Bible sent His Son out of Love for us to sacrifice His Body and Blood that our sins woud be wiped out so that the Father could look at us through His blood and see grace.

Childhood Dysfunction

Childhood dysfunction I know that women have historically been made to look like weak individuals. But I want to talk here about my mom, who was in a family of Freemasons, and was really very selfish and did things that were damaging. At the age of 3, I remember my mom sitting at a table with me and I was writing, and every time I used my left hand, she would pull my hair. As a result of this, I was right handed, out of fear of using my left hand for anything. I had a bad stuttering habit, which stuck with me for a long time, but in tenth grade, I took a speech class, which I was very interested in, and the stuttering habit got under control. I had read somewhere that it was caused by a parent interfering with left handedness. Also at the age of 3 was when I was molested in the garage of an 8 year old girl, with another 8 year old girl helping her. I didn't know what they were doing, but it bothered me later on, and I think I said something to my mom, and she said it was my fault that that had happened. I remember once at the age of 4, I was playing by the side of the garage, and my mom accused me of being sexually active with this little boy I was playing with. I didn't even know what that was, and never did until about age 14. At the age of 5, I had a dream of snakes in my bed, and woke up in a hanging position, because my mom had grabbed my ankles and was beating my butt like crazy; she said I had wet the bed. From that time on, I could not fall asleep, and one time she grabbed my feet and started pumping my legs up and down, saying, "I'll get you tired, I'll get you tired." It didn’t work. I never fell asleep. When I was 6, I got my first migraine. it was a Saturday night, and we were all watching TV, and my eye started hurting really bad, to the point where I wanted to grab it and pluck it out of my head. It spread to the back of my head, and I was going out of my mind in pain. Of course, mommie dearest didn't understand, basically because I couldn't explain what was happening to me. She just hit me for being obstinate or something. That made it hurt worse. I got one every Saturday for a long time. Than I got one every time I went anywhere. They always ended with throwing up. I remember when I was about ten, my mom forced me to drink boiling water until I threw up. I never knew why she did the things that she did. I was also forced to take enemas and laxatives as punishment. I also remember having to take vitamins, because she was panicking, having heard a child was dying. A lot of forced issues. Then when I was a teenager, every time I got a migraine, she would think I was pregnant. I didn't even know how one got in that condition until they explained it to us in eighth grade, that the blood that came out in our periods was meant to feed a baby. They showed us the uterus, and then I understood where my big belly came from. Painful periods were my next dilemma. I was not able to predict when I would get a period; they were not regular, nor were they equal in length. My mom would accuse me of having things to do with boys because my periods weren't starting on time. People think these phenomena of sexual fantasies of parents and children are a new thing; they are not. My mom was born in 1912, and that is 103 years ago, and if she did the things that made her accuse me of things, then these things have been happening for more than a century. I have no clue as to why the current opinion is that these things are new; that they just started happening. It is a concept that has been around for years.

Saturday, April 01, 2017

This is the air I breathe

Monday, April 25, 2016

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Monday, July 13, 2015

A New Pic

Sunday, January 18, 2015

I have been trying to achieve greatness

I am attempting to get my book Branches re-published but need to make additional income to attain that goal. So I got ahold of some sites by which I can make some income from other things I have written. I also have an anthology of poetry written by a class I taught, and an autobiography of one of my students that I am getting some royalties on.

This third book is a research treatment on pedophilia, which I wrote earlier this year, to try to figure out why these guys who do these things are not treated by a psychiatrist, they are just allowed to be the way they are. I am very grateful that most states now require that sex offenders register and have to sign in every month, but what about the ones who are not caught?

I know that I will not get a lot of money off of these things, and I need a lot of money to have this done. I will just keep writing and trying to find ways to increase my funding.

I should look at the book I wrote first, My Life as a Doormat, and see if I can publish that, but in a more accessible format for now. That one is pretty much in a format that I can just do what I did with the pedophilia one. Maybe it will work. I will try it, but for now there is something I need to help my husband with, and so I bid you adieu for now.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

This is the first day of the rest of my life.

On the 27th of February, 2012, I married my best friend, whom I have known since September, 2001. Our relationship has been just friends for a long time, as we went to Bible College together until he graduated, and just recently went to the same church, where he asked me out on a date to the theater, where we saw "It's a Wonderful Life", and two weeks later, he asked me to marry him. Believe me, I wasn't looking for anything of the kind, but I told him I would pray about it and two days later, on New Year's Eve, I said yes. Suddenly everybody knew we were engaged, and so I told all my kids, and put it on Facebook, which surprised everybody, but they were glad for both of us. We have been married now for almost four months, and it is heaven.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Since I am in Christ

Since I am in Christ, by the grace of God, I …
Rom. 5:1 have been justified (completely forgiven and made righteous)
Rom. 6:1-6 died with Christ and died to the power of sin and its rule over my life.
Rom.8:1 am free forever from condemnation.
1Cor 1:30 have been placed into Christ by God’s doing.
1Cor 2:12 have received the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things freely given
to me by God
1Cor 2:16 have been given the mind of Christ.
1Cor 6:19,20 have been bought with a price; I am not my own, I belong to God.
2Cor 1:21 have been established, anointed, and sealed by God in Christ, and have been
Eph 1:13,14 given the Holy Spirit as a pledge (a deposit, downpayment)guaranteeing my
inheritance to come.
2Cor 5:14,15 Since I have died, I no longer livefor myself, but for him (Christ)
2Cor 5:21 have been made righteous.
Gal 2:20 have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me
(the life I am living is Christ’s life)
Eph. 1:3 have been blessed with every spiritual blessing.
Eph. 1:4 have been chosen in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and
without blame before him.
Eph. 1:5 was predestined (determined by God) to be adopted as a son.
Eph 1:7,8 have been redeemed, forgiven, and am a recipient of his lavish grace.
Eph. 2:5 have been made alive together with Christ.
Eph. 2:6 have been raised up and seated with Christ in heaven.
Eph. 2:18 have direct access to God through the Spirit.
Eph. 3:12 may approach god with boldness, freedom, and confidence.
Col.1:13 have been delivered (rescued) from the domain of darkness (Satan’s rule) and
transferred to the Kingdom of Christ.
Col 1:14 have been redeemed, forgiven, and am a recipient of his lavish grace.
Col.1;27 Christ himself is in me.
Col.2:7 have been firmly rooted in Christ and am now being built up in him.
Col. 2:11 have been spiritually circumcised (my old, unregenerate nature has been removed).
Col.2:10 have been made complete in Christ.
Col.2:12,13 have been buried, raised, and made alive with Christ.
Col.3:1-4 have been raised up with Christ, I died with Christ, my life is now hidden with Christ in
God, and Christ is now my life.
2Tim. 1:7 have been given a spirit of power, love, and self-discipline.
2Tim 1:9, Titus 3:5 have been saved and called(set apart) according to God’s doing.
Heb. 2:11 Because I am sanctified and am one with the Sanctifier,(Christ) he is not ashamed to call
me brother.
Heb. 4:16 have a right to come boldly before the throne of God the throne of grace) to find mercy
and find grace in time of need.
2Pet1:4 have been given exceedingly great and precious promises by which I am a partaker of
the divine nature.(God’s nature)

Who am I?

Who Am I ?
Matt. 5:13 I am the salt of the earth
Matt. 5:14 I am the light of the world.
John 1:12 I am a child of God (part of His family)
John 15:1,5 I am part of the true vine, a channel (branch) of Christ’s life.
John 15:15 I am Christ’s friend.
John 25:16 I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear his fruit.
Romans 5:18 I am a slave of righteousness
Rom. 6:22 I am enslaved to God.
Rom. 8:14,15 I am a son of God (God is spiritually my father)(see Galatians 3:26 and 4:6)
Rom. 8:17 I am a joint heir with Christ, sharing his inheritance with him.
1 Cor 3:16, 6:19 I am a temple (home) of God. His spirit (his life) dwells in me.
1 Cor 6:17 I am joined (united) with him, and am one in spirit with him.
1 Cor 12:27 I am a member (part) of Christ’s body(see ‘Ephesians 5:30)
2 Cor. 5:17 I am a new creation (new person)
2 Cor. 5:18,19 I am reconciled to God and am a minister of reconciliation.
Gal.3:26,28 I am a son of God and one in Christ.
Gal. 4:6,7 I am an heir of God since I am a son of God.
Eph. 1:1 I am a saint (see 1Cor 1:2, Phil. 1:1, and Col. 1:2)
Eph 2:10 I am God’s workmanship (handiwork) heCor 1:2, Phil. 1:1, and Col. 1:2
Created (born anew) In Christ to do his work that he planned beforehand for me to do.
Eph 2:19 I am a fellow citizen with the rest of God’s people in his family.
Eph 3:1, 4:1 I am a prisoner of Christ.
Eph 4:24 I am righteous and holy.
Phil. 3:20 I am a citizen of heaven and seated in heaven right now. (see Eph 2:6)
Col 3:3 I am hidden with Christ in God
Col 3:4 I am an expression of the life of Christ because he is my life.
Col 3:12 I am chosen of God, holy and dearly loved.
1 thess 1;4 I am chosen and dearly loved by God.
1 thess 5:5 I am a son of light and not of darkness.
Heb. 3:1 I am a holy brother, partaker of a heavenly calling.
Heb. 3:14 I am a partaker of Christ, and I share in his life.
1Pet 2:5 I am one of God’s living stones and am being built up (in Christ) as a spiritual house.
1 pet 2:9,10 I am a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession to
proclaim the excellencies of him.
1 Pet. 2:11 I am an alien and stranger to this world I temporarily live in.
1 oet 5:8 I am an enemy of the devil.
1John 3:1,2 I am now a child of God, I will resemble Christ when he returns.
1John 5:18 I am born of God and the evil one(the devil) cannot touch me.

I am not the great “I Am”(Exodus 3:14, John 8:24,28,58) “but by the grace of God I am what I am.”(1Cor 15:10)